i know i cant take back whatever i've said.
and i didn't mean to hurt you that way.
it's just too tiring for me to always have the same kinda conversations with you.
always having the same argument and everything.
you're always the one trying to make me feel better and everything.
i want to do the same thing for you.
but i suck at that.
it's too tiring for us both..
why is it so difficult for you to let my past go?
i managed to let yours go cause i didnt wana question it and make myself miserable.
so why can't you??
i don't want to see you torturing yourself like that..

i love yo so much...
you are the best thing that has ever happened to me.
and no ordinary guy can offer me whatever you're offering me.
and all i want to do, is to make this relationship even better..
i know i haven't been helping alot..
but i'm trying my best..

can we please, just start a new chapter?
i'm still looking forward to living together..

i ♥ my wild bf.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY SERENE WONG XUELING!

hello hello~!
it's 7am and im not asleep.
cant slp!
was using com all night~
and i was chatting with W online.
good old times! :)

haha~
and nic n weiling came over last night to chill until 1am~!
we cooked pasta together. n i tell you.
it's nice~~~!
really nice!
weiling n nicholas can vouch for tat! :D
and oh ya!
we played indian poker.
FUCKING FUN!
ahah! we drank love's brandy.
and i must say. weiling really suck at drinking.
but overall, it was all fun!
with smokes and crazy laughters.
wads there not to love?? :D
and we have plans abt either mj-ing/prawning on thurs night.
seriously. which is better? hmmmm......

and i miss love sooooooo much!
cant wait for him to book out later! :D
and i'll be staying at his place until sat~
weet weet!
i don't want this week to ever end!
:( :( :( :( :( :( :(


oh ya. one last thing before i throw myself in bed and wake up with love beside me(hopefully).
im thinking of quitting school.
yes. one last semester and im thinking of something so stupid like this.
screw myself.
morning bitches!

i ♥ my wild bf.

hello bitches~!

weekend was a blast!
love's parents are out of town!
and his place is my kingdom! ;)

love and i had a great chat last night.
and i said something i haven't heard in a long time.
"Sometimes, people tend to forgive you for a mistake you made.
But ultimately, it's you who needs to forgive yourself and move on."
and i think tat is very true.
i hope love feels better..

i'm all alone at his place now.
cause love booked in this morning. :(
wanted to wake up in the morning with him and i'll go home.
but i overslept and love didnt want to wake me up so i can slp more. :(
so when i woke up, love is not in and he left me his keys.
and you have no idea how happy i am with this simple gesture.
i feel super duper special about it. :)

good thing i'm used to life alone.
so i managed to survive thru since i woke up at 12pm.
i love the weather!
and i miss him, alot.
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anyway,
i've been mj-ing on fri night and sat night.
with:
MANE.G
CHUA WEILING
NICHOLAS LIOW
NICHOLAS TAY ZY
NICHOLAS (duno surname)
and lastly me.

and i won a total of 27bucks.
i think i'm reaching a full-time mj gambler alrd.
OMG.
even love is influenced by me.
he has been mj-ing with me!
and we drank and smoked and gambled at love's place!
played mj in his room.
smoked in his room.
on the air-con in his room.
and you know wad?
his room is like a SUPER TINY version of genting.
(that's wad i hear them saying)
and love invited his friends over and chill.
so basically the whole house is filled with music and booze.
mini enjoyment hur hur~

and on that day, friday,
love went to meet his ex secondary sch mate for dinner.
then sent his parents off to Switz.
and we waited for love at amk mac.
and we took pictures!
only 2 la.
with this eye thingy application in ZY's psp.
fucking retarded.


me looking OMG.

and ling seems to love her cat eyes. haha!

anyway, i think this is all i wana blog.
and hey~!
i think i'm screwed for school!
and i'm stucked with wad to do. LOL

byebye you~!

i ♥ my wild bf.

(track is the first song on my playlist)

PINK - I DON'T BELIEVE YOU


I don’t mind it
I don’t mind at all
It’s like you’re the swing set
And I’m the kid that falls
It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion’s there
So it’s got to be right
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t mind it
I still don’t mind at all
It’s like one of those bad dreams
When you can’t wake up
Looks like you’ve given up
You’ve had enough
But I want more
No I won't stop
'Cause I just know
You’ll come around
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

Just don’t stand there and watch me fall
'Cause I, 'cause I still don’t mind at all

It’s like the way we fight
The times I’ve cried
We come to blows
And every night
The passion's there
So it’s got to be right,
Right?

No I don’t believe you
When you say don’t come around here no more
I won’t remind you
You said we wouldn’t be apart
No I don’t believe you
When you say you don’t need me anymore
So don’t pretend to
Not love me at all

I don’t believe you

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i ♥ my wild bf.

i got bored since i can't sleep.
so i was doing this personality test.
you can go HEREif you wana do the test.

i got NEGOTIATOR:
You instinctively know how others are thinking and feeling. And with your excellent command of language, your graciousness, and your acute social sensitivity you can be enormously empathetic, charming and tactful.
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and click HERE to know:
10 WAY OF SLIMMING DOWN WITHOUT DIETING.

click HERE to know:
HOW TO EAT ACCORDING TO YOUR PERSONALITY.

click HERE to know:
WHAT ARE THE 20 THINGS TO DO BEFORE YOU START DIETING.

something random:
BABES, THESE ARE A FEW WAYS TO BREAK UP WITH YOUR BF!
it's not for me thou.
just find it really interesting.
click HERE.
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bye bye~~
and i hope you enjoy all these informations!

i ♥ my wild bf.

these past few weeks had been wonderful with love around. :)
and unknowingly, 2months had past, and he has to book in alrd.
now im so not use to him not being around as often.
but good thing.
love's parents are going off to Switzerland this Friday for a week.
and his place is gonna be empty whenever he books out.
booze on Friday night if confirmed.
and MJ on Saturday!
(holy crap! I'm such a gambler!)
i'm so excited about it!
and i know it's gonna be great cause,
I GOTTA FEELING, THAT THOSE NIGHTS ARE GONNA BE~ GOOD NIGHTS~!

and love asked me a few random questions this morning regarding the past.
i remembered answering cool-ly, and i also remember some part of me was still feeling a tiny tinge of hurt.
well, i guess some part of me are just not as forgiving.
love said he feels sad for me.
saying why do i have to go thru so much hurt and all.
(i don't wish for him to pity me or anything)
cause i feel, it's just a phase of life isn't it?
I'm actually glad he asked thou.
cause at least i know that he wants to know more, not wanting history to repeat itself.

and love, i don't want the same thing to ever ever happen to me again.
and I'm glad you feel that way too.
i know i can trust you to never allow that to happen. :)
i love you.
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and hey bitches out there!
happy birthday to:
ALICIA LOH HUI LING
CHUA WEI LING

and upcoming~
SERENE WONG XUE LING.
MANDY LIM HUI YI.
LILY CHONG CHOY YENG.
:)
there are way too much October and November babies!!
LOL!
people around our parent's age seems to be rather sexually active in Dec, Jan & Feb isn't it? hmmm....
but then again, I'm glad all these people existed in my life. :)

and without LILY, there won't be me!

did i happen to mention?
i was an accident. hmmmmmm~~
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anyway, this year's Halloween was awesome!
I'm finally doing something for Halloween!
i wanted to dress up as something n go and club.
but i didn't have any costume.
bummer....
but!
i went to NIGHT SAFARI for Halloween!
with CRAZY LYNN, AUNTIE CWL, MR. NICHOLAS LIOW & LOVE OF MY LIFE, MANE.G.
:)
thou it was drizzling and all.
i tell you.
i had so much fun!

PICTURES from HALLOWEEN at NS~!


WITH WEI LING, the birthday girl~!

with CRAZY LYNN!

the girls~~

if you must know, Nicholas, the guy in green acting gay.

doll-stabbing ghost wannabe.

love and nicholas say this dracula is fucking guai lan. LOL!

i think this ghost chick is pretty. and i tell you.
she has a very piercing stare.
and it scare the hell out of me and weiling!

CLOWN CLOWN & CLOWN!
people who knows me.
you know how much i am afraid of clowns!

i can never understand how can love smile so widely. -_-!




Love look fucking mud here siol~

caught unprepared! haha!

but i still love you!
and thank you so much for taking out time to spend it with me and my friends. :)
i appreciate it very very much. :)
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i dunno what else to blog.
but i do know that I've got school tmr at 1pm.
and it's going 4 now.
I'm screwed.
nighty nights folks~!

i ♥ my wild bf.

I FINALLY FOUND A NEW BLOG SKIN!

and mane is eating cashew nuts beside me.
will blog again with pictures!

bye bye bitches!

i ♥ my wild bf.

love dedicated this song to me.
and i love this song so much so much.
:)
you can hear this song from the song list by the side column.


NEYO - TOGETHER

[ Verse 1 ]
Since the day that we met girl
I ain't never had anyone make me feel this way
And my heart is sure it wants to be with you
Want to give you the whole world…ohh
If you make the promise to me you're gonna stay
Without you guiding me, I’m lost and so confused

[ Hook ]
What will it take to show you I’ll be by you’re side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you a part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
Girl your love is where it's at…ohhh

[ Chorus ]
I’m gonna be the love that’s gonna last
And be the one that got your back
Aint nothin' ever never that bad
That we won't be together
And though we both made a mistake
And some we never wished we made
But we will be okay if we just stay together

[ Verse 2 ]
Oooh…I know he left you stranded
And you paid the price when you messed up your life
Girl I know you’re so afraid but I can’t right the wrongs he did
I know you saw the lipstick on my window
And wonder how many chicks been to my home
I done my share of playing games
But for you I given up that life

[ Hook ]
What will it take to show you I’ll be by you’re side
Girl I got you and I want to give you what you never had
Girl everyday I hope to make you a part of my life
Cause you know me and I know you
Girl your love is where its at…ohhh

( Chorus )…

[ Verse 3 ]
Baby you’re the one I’ve waited for
Because you give me what I need and more
Girl its clear that we are meant to be
Together…together…we should be together
Eternally….Ooohh
Girl I’m gonna be….

( Chorus ) x2

i ♥ my wild bf.

last night was too traumatizing..
i need some time to do whatever i shud to feel better..

and this feeling suck..

sometimes time doesnt heal all wounds.
it's love that heals all wounds.

i ♥ my wild bf.

hello hello~!

birthday is over~ :)
and im officially 9teen~
and love brought me shopping for so many stuff~!
you have absolutely no idea how much i enjoyed myself.
met, Alicia, Anthony, Serene & Shihui for dinner at Billy Bombers. :)
and you can never guess it.
Serene treated me to BB~!
and she bought me my present for last year.
like FINALLY~~
lol. and you know it serene. :D
thank you~
and alicia bought me a barbie doll and a cup with my face n mane's on it.
thank you babe~
Anthony bought me a walking Winnie Pooh bear.
WIERD. yes, but still thank you~!
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fifth month just ended not too long ago. :)
and yes, still a long way to go~!
and im looking forward to it. :)
<3s.
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lastly, went Dblo ytd and i must say,
it didnt end too well last night except when we both ended up at a hotel again.
and yes, no matter wad happened,
i felt fucked up last night.
but it's over.
so let's smile broadly and move forward~ :)
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and life sucks.
school is starting tmr alrd.
wa lau eh...

i ♥ my wild bf.